MAJOR contractor fraud, and I NEED help

I am dealing with major contractor fraud. I paid $202,021 to Charlotte Ford of Hope Field Construction in Sulphur, Louisiana in order to completely repair my house after Hurricanes Laura and Delta.

PLEASE spread the story far and wide. Not a single organization or person that is supposed to care about this and help care. Instead, I'm left living in an incomplete and dangerous house, havaing to listen to organization after organization repeat the lies that the pathological liar (I have documented evidence, but people go against that and listen to Charlotte who does NOT have documented evidence) Charlotte Ford constantly tells. She did NOT finish ALL of the repairs on the insurance estimate and she STOLE the money. Plus, she sabotaged and ruined my house. She keeps saying I owe her $40,000 and laughs about the things she has ruined and sabotaged.

She took advantage of a disabled and serious compromised and then seriously ill person.

I have the record of every payment made to Charlotte L'Juan Ford of Hope Field Construction and the proof that she cashed every check that I wrote her. You can the Checks I wrote and Charlotte cashed and other payments here. I have it all documented. There are no lies coming from me. Charlotte is the one that needs to answer. She owes me an entirely new house. (I need to see if I can get them, but she also owes me for all of the months that she kept me out of my house and I had to stay in an extended stay).

The insurance estimate, as seen here - Estimate from Liberty Mutual - says that the repairs shouldn't have cost more than $112,000. However, they did forget my 2nd bathroom. Then, I did ask for some extras, but none of these things should've cost $90,021. Some of that money should have been for me to replace my contents.

The theft of money is awful, but it gets way worse than that. My house is only "liveable." And that is debatable. The city of Lake Charles wanted to condemn my house. I don't have money to live somewhere else. I don't have family. I don't have any local friends that are able to house me and my little service dog, Radar.

How are things worse? My house is not complete and as I find things that need to be completed, more problems are found. These are not problems from an aging house. My house should've been brand new.

When my air conditioning went out in April less than a month of me being back in my house, I reluctantly agreed to letting Charlotte come back in order to fix it when somebody, N, said they would be on my property to watch Charlotte and another person, D, took me out to eat. Charlotte did NOT fix my air conditioning. Instead, she put rodents in my ceiling and air vents. There were no scratching noises in my ceiling before Charlotte came to supposedly fix my air. Afterwards, there were tons of scratching noises and I could pinpoint where rodents were trying to scratch througth my ceiling. One day, I heard a very loud PLOP and rodents started running all over my house. I don't have food sources for them out where they can eat. I hear them eating my house every day and every night. Now, they are literally "eating" my house as they constantly c hew on stuff and there are no food sources for them.

I knew that I was told there was a gas leak, though this seemed strange as I was paying for gas while Charlotte was working on my house. My gas bill showed usage. I called out a couple of plumbers to check what needed to be done. They told me that the gas pipes are cut into pieces. The second one was more thorough and let me know that the plumbing (attic) vent is missing. Therefore, if I had gas heat, the house would be toxic and most likely explode. This means Charlotte had to change this.

I will get into more, but first, Charlotte promised me that I would have no out of pocket expenses. She promised me that I'd be back in my home, in a room while she did work, so I wouldn't have to be concerned about living expenses. She promised me that my house would be fully ADA accessible. None of that was ever true. I had to use every dollar in my sister's death benefit, a large portion of money for my contents (and Charlotte wanted this money, but I told her that I used it to stay safely housed in a hotel), a settlement from a car accident, borrow against my life insurance three times, and have multiple donations from various sources just in order to stay safely housed.

Things have only gotten worse from when this YouTube playlist was created: Contractor Fraud

What needs to happen with Charlotte and with Hiscox: I need to have money to have my house demolished and completely rebuilt. There are rodents in my ceiling and my walls that are eating my house. Nothing is repaired correctly. Money for added living expenses, so I can live in an extended stay while my house is being built. Charlotte needs to be in jail. She has broken a myriad of laws.

Louisiana Law supposedly supports this. Louisiana Law RS 14:202.1 has the following subsections, all of which Charlotte L'Juan Ford of Hope Field Construction out of Sulphur, LA has violated."

(2) Uses, or causes an agent or employee to use, any deception, false pretense, or false promise to cause any person to enter into a contract for home improvements or residential construction. (She showed me a paper upon our first meeting that was supposed to show that she is bonded in the state of Louisiana. She is not.)

(3) Damages the property of any person with the intent to induce that person to enter into a contract for home improvements or residential construction. (She deliberately caused more damage to my house in addition to not finishing the repairs, stole the money, and wants me to pay her more - and she would just come back and mess up my house more.)

(4) When the misappropriation or intentional taking amounts to a value of twenty-five thousand dollars or more, the offender shall be imprisoned at hard labor for not more than twenty years, or be fined not more than fifty thousand dollars, or both.(Charlotte L'Juan Ford BELONGS IN JAIL).

D.(1) In addition to the penalties provided in Subsection C of this Section, a person convicted of residential contractor fraud shall be ordered to make full restitution to the victim and any other person who has suffered a financial loss as a result of the offense. For the purposes of this Subsection, restitution to the victim shall include the cost of repairing work fraudulently performed by the contractor and the cost of completing work for which the contractor was paid but did not complete. (Charlotte L'Jaun Ford OWES ME over $100,000! She owes me the money to have my house demolished and a new one rebuilt plus the money to stay safely housed while this is being done).

• Why was Charlotte L'Jaun Ford of Hope Field Construction hired?
  To repair my house after Hurricanes Laura and Delta.
  
  
• Why didn't I use a company through Liberty Mutual (I no longer can afford house insurance, so I no longer have this company)?
  They had no in-network companies, so I had to do research.
  
  
• Did you get reviews about Charlotte?
  Yes, and every single one praised how she good she is. I even followed up and after this, I let the people know about how awful she is, and they still said she was this shining, great person when she is not.
  
  
• When did Charlotte start work?
  
  May 28, 2021, though Charlotte will lie and say it was in November 2021. I have the evidence.
  
  
  
  
• Why didn't you check on your house?
  I did when I was able to check. I was literally stuck in Port Arthur without a car. When I got a car, I came in about once a week and there was a crew on my property each time I came into town. Then, I ended up with a broken collarbone, and thus was not able to drive.
  
  
• Why didn't you check on your house when back in town?
  I had people help me get back into town because my collarbone was still broken. I could not drive to go see my house. Then I had an episode of broken heart syndrome and a cardiologist took advantage of me while I was in an Altered Mental State and implanted a leadless pacemaker (that type goes inside your heart) that was leaking electricity directly into my heart and putting extra electricity into my bloodstream, causing severe health problems and nerve damage. I got the pacemaker removed EIGHT MONTHS after it was first put into my heart. My nerves are STILL recovering from this.
  
  
• Did you try mediation?
  Yes. Nobody took my side. What happened was that I was delivered threats from Charlotte and piddly little things like her claiming to have countertops for my kitchen (which wouldn't have made any difference since there's no subflooring).
  
  
• Why didn't you demand Charlotte give you a copy of your key?
  I demanded she give me a copy of my key. She kept saying, "I forgot," every single time I asked for it or demanded it.
  
  
• Didn't Charlotte testify for you?
  No. We never even went to court. From her own words concerting Joseph Muckleroy, "I talked to Joe A LOT." That is not testifying. In fact, Charlotte failed to show up for the deposition and she completely ignored a supoena to provide documents (reciepts, spreadsheets, pictures.)
  
  
  

This is a SERIOUS CASE of contractor fraud and people who are supposed to do anything about contractor fraud SHOULD CARE, but they don't. I tried going after Charlotte when it was clear she was not doing the proper work, but was still coming on my property to at least act if she were working and the Contractor Fraud division said she and any of her workers could not have been on my property in the past 45 days (which seems to be an incorrect reading of the law).

It became EXTREMELY apparent in October 2023 that she was not doing the work, so I started to try to go after her. However, the contractor fraud line said she (or any of her workers) couldn't have been on my property in the past 45 days. She obviously knew of this law because when people would take me to drive by my house, there would be at least one worker there. I tried to go after her once I was back in my property in April 2024 as she purposefully kept me out and I didn't have the key until February 13, 2024. I called the Lake Charles Police three times. They did not care about me and the situation at all. They looked around the house, agreed it is not finished, and called Charlotte.

I had a detective, Jason Raymond, from the Calcasieu Parish Sheriff's Office come out and get a report and files of all my documents along with me sending along all the other information I have to him. The contractor fraud line denied my case simply on them calling Charlotte and her saying that I owed her $40,000. They did not pay attention to any of my documentation or the fact that my house is not finished, and that I have no fences around my yards like I should.

I reported her to Louisiana State Licensing Board for Contractors. I saved up $150 for a consultation with John Fitzgerland of FHD Firm. I told him of my financial situation. I sent him every document that I have. He acted like he was going to take the case. I call back to his office. I'm told that all I have to do is come in to the office and sign a retainer for his services. I get a ride to his office. I go in to sign the retainer and I'm told that he will not take the case because it will cost me too much.

Where is the help that is supposed to exist? Why is nobody helping with this situation?

When I can, I'm looking for a work from home job, however, with my nerve damage, it can be difficult to concentrate on such things, and work from home jobs are few and far between. I'm also trying to get students for my online theatre classes, but nobody has truly been interested.

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Blog name changed

Around the time I made my last post, I changed my blog name ever so slightly to Poetry, Popcorn, and Prose beause that way the words are in alphabetical order and I won't keep getting them mixed up. However, ther is no "and" in the URL. Yet, the words beginning with the letter P are in alphabetical order.

I've been doing A LOT of healing

My body is doing A LOT of healing.

Back on October 18, 2021, I was found in an Altered Mental State in the hotel where I was staying. I was brought to Lake Charles Memorial. The doctors there put a leadless pacemaker in my heart (that's one that goes inside of your heart). I didn't really know this happened because they did not truly get my consent. They took advantage of me being in an altered mental state to get me to "sign" for them to do the operation. (Note: Don't trust Dr. Young or Dr. Thompson at Lake Charles Memorial, though I'd really not trust any of them there). The pacemaker was malfunctioning. Basically, every day that I was in the hospital after coming out of the Altered Mental State and out of ICU, I would tell the doctor assigned to me that my feet were vibrating and both doctors wouldn't believe me. Also, I was never assigned a cardiac team which is supposed to be done when you have any type of a heart operation, including a pacemaker. I got off of Norvasc, which had horrible side effects on me and also off of Protonix which closed my throat.

They also insisted that I was diabetic. I didn't think and purposely say it, but it came out of my mouth, "Are you sure I'm diabetic." So, after giving myself insulin for a few months, I finally got the doctor that I was seeing to take a look at all of my records of my blood sugar and what I ate and insulin injections and she said, "I don't think you're diabetic. Eat like normal and quit using all insulin products." I was so relieved that she tested my blood sugar two more times when I ate like I normally would and it was found that I'm not diabetic. Lantus was giving me really low blood pressure.

I had to write 30 letters about the pacemaker. One went to the doctor (really nurse practitioner) that I was seeing as she wouldn't listen to me, one went to my sister's former doctor who is really nice, and 28 went to cardiologists from Houston, TX to New Orleans, LA. I was contacted by one in Houston and scheduled to see another. Dr. Amish Dave put the pacemaker into OVO mode which is supposed to make it so it is just like a constant EKG. The pacemaker still made my feet and other body parts vibrate along with making a really weird feeling in my ears. I don't remember when it was that I finally switched local doctors, but I know that when I did, I still had the pacemaker (A Micra AV) and my doctor looked in my ears and asked why it was all brown and she couldn't see. I could only tell her that I didn't know. But, I do know the pacemaker was making my ears feel all funny like the canals had this weird lining all around the edges. I bet the pacemaker was making the wax line the edges of my ear canals with all of those vibrations.

Dr. Mihail Chelu turned the pacemaker off permently. It was supposed to be that way, anyway. However, the thing NEVER turned off. It kept vibrating. I finally got to see Dr. David Burkland who came into Lake Charles from Houston. He wasn't comfortable with doing the operation, but he told me who I needed to see! So, immediately after that appointment, I called to make an appointment with Dr. John Joseph Seger. I went to that appointment which seemed a bit strange, but it was only because it took quite a long time. Yet, that was also good that somebody was paying attention! I got an, "Okay, it can come out."

Between this appointment and the operation to get the pacemaker removed, things got much worse and I starting worrying. The pacemaker started really hurting in my chest. It had never been comfortable, but it was HURTING and SO PAINFUL. A medical/antiseptic smell was coming from my chest. I could easily smell it. Radar, my little service dog, could easily smell it, too. She was constantly poking her nose at my chest and letting me know that something was wrong. (It's not like she wasn't trying to tell me that something was wrong before that, because she definitely was, but I couldn't do anything other than what I had been doing as local doctors weren't listening to me and were even trying to make me feel guilty for their ignorance and negligence).

On June 22, 2022, the pacemaker was removed! I was SO HAPPY, though even after the anesthesia wore off, I had some major dizziness for awhile and my feet still had MAJOR tingling in them. I read about how it takes nerves a very long time to heal. Well, that pacemaker REALLY messed up my nerves. Even as I am writing this, my nerves still tingle. It's mostly the nerves in my feet, but the nerves in my ears still often have a funny feeling and sometimes the rest of the nerves in my body feel a bit odd, too. That usually stops once I'm up and moving around. I can tell my nerves have gotten much better, though. At first, my feet REALLY tingled. It was SO STRONG that it was very irritating. Then, about three months in, the tingling stopped being so strong all of the time, but it was still REALLY STRONG when I woke up in the mornings. My nerves would feel "blinky" or "buzzy" before calming down. Now, the tingling is mostly even throughout the day, and I can mostly just stand what is happening. However, I will be so glad once my nerves fully heal.

Oh, and the other thing that the pacemaker did was give me HORRIBLE brain fog! Like, I know that 2*9=18. Easy. It's very easy now. But, with the brain fog, my mind would do things like think, 2*8=7, even though I KNEW it was wrong. It was so hard to think and it was so hard to catch typos. Sure, I still make typos, but now, I catch them more often. Back with the pacemaker, I might see one of three after I had written something. Now, I tend to see them all after they happen, and my own typos still drive me crazy. It's good to have my brain back. It does its normal non-stop thinking stuff, which honestly, makes me quite happy. I like having my brain back.

Also, I broke my collarbone back in August 2021 and while the main part has healed, it still gets very sore. I read how it can actually take years for a collarbone to fully heal, and so far, it seems like that's what mine wants to do. Because of this, I actually sleep in a recliner that I have in this hotel room (the plan is to get a room and a bathroom in where I live so then I can actually start living in my house and I'll be SO GLAD when that happens!) Yes, this is because of the insurance company I had not paying the full amount for my house to be repaired after Hurricanes Laura and Delta.

Listening to Music that I should know

Okay, first, let me put the caveat that when I say I should know these songs, I mean know of them and I do know a lot of them. It doesn't mean that I won't forget, either. I'm not judging anybody if they don't want to listen, either. But, I'm wanting to listen to these songs. I've just started working on listening to all of Elton John's songs.

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I've listened to:

• Every Billy Joel song
• Every Beatles album
• Every Queen song
• Every unreleased/"lost" Beatles song.

Obviously, once I finally get through with Elton John, I'll move onto something else. However, right now, Elton John songs are going to take quite awhile.

Cumulative 12 Days of Christmas Gifts

I've wanted to this for MANY years, but never had gotten around to it. I'm sure there are other things online, but I wanted to do it myself.

If cumulative . . . what you end up having each day . . . (not what you get each day)

Day 1 - a partridge in a pear tree

Day 2 - two partridges in two pear trees, two turtle doves

Day 3 - three partridges in three pear trees, four turtle doves, three French hens

Day 4 - four partridges in three pear trees, six turtle doves, six French hens, four calling birds

Day 5 - five partridges in five pear trees, eight turtle doves, nine French hens, eight calling birds, five golden rings

Day 6 - six partridges in six pear trees, ten turtle doves, twelve French hens, twelve calling birds, ten golden rings, six geese a-laying

Day 7 - seven partridges in seven pear trees, twelve turtle doves, fifteen French hens, sixteen calling birds, fifteen golden rings, twelve geese a-laying, seven swans a-swimming

Day 8 - eight partridges in eight pear trees, fourteen turtle doves, eighteen French hens, twenty calling birds, twenty golden rings, eighteen geese a-laying, fourteen swans a-swimming, eight maids a-milking

Day 9 - nine partridges in nine pear trees, sixteen turtle doves, twenty-one French hens, twenty-four calling birds, twenty-five golden rings, twenty-four geese a-laying, twenty-one swans a-swimming, sixteen maids a-milking, nine ladies dancing

Day 10 - ten partridges in ten pear trees, eighteen turtle doves, twenty-four French hens, twenty-eight calling birds, thirty golden rings, thirty geese a-laying, twenty-eight swans a-swimming, twenty-four maids a-milking, eighteen ladies dancing, ten lords a-leaping

Day 11 - eleven partridges in eleven pear trees, twenty turtle doves, twenty-seven French hens, thrity-two calling birds, thirty-five golden rings, thirty-six geese a-laying, thirty-five swans a-swimming, thirty-two maids a-milking, twenty-seven ladies dancing, twenty lords a-leaping, 11 pipers piping

Day 12 - twelve partridges in twelve pear trees, twenty-two turtle doves, thirty French hens, thirty-six calling birds, forty golden rings, forty-two geese a-laying, forty-two swans a-swimming, forty maids a-milking, thirty-six ladies dancing, thiry lords a-leaping, 22 pipers piping, 12 drummers drumming

So, you probably end up with 12 trees, 184 birds, 40 pieces of jewelry, 140 people, 40 cows, and 34 instruments.

Briana Lyn Delaney passed away on September 28, 2020

~ In Memoriam ~

Briana Lyn Delaney

November 25, 1983 - September 28, 2020

More coming later . . .

De-Evolution of a Song by Google Translate

We built this city	This city was built
We built this city on rock and rollt	The city is a rock
Built this city	Build this city
We built this city on rock and roll	The city is a rock
Say you don't know me or recognize my face	Tell me you do not know me or have not seen your face
Say you don't care who goes to that kind of place	For example, what happened to you?
Knee deep in the hoopla, sinking in your fight	Wear shoes to warm
Too many runaways eating up the night	Most animals feed at night
Marconi plays the mamba, listen to the radio, don't you remember?	Marconi is playing mango, I'm listening to the radio, remember me
We built this city, we built this city on rock and roll	We are building this city.
We built this city, we built this city on rock and roll	We are building this city.
Built this city, we built this city on rock and roll	We can make this city.
Someone's always playing corporation games	Some of them are still playing this game professionally.
Who cares, they're always changing corporation names	However, he changed the name of the company.
We just want to dance here, someone stole the stage	I want to dance here. Someone stole the crime scene
They call us irresponsible, write us off the page	Call irresponsibly and write on the page
Marconi plays the mamba, listen to the radio, don't you remember?	Marconi is playing mango. I'm listening to the radio. Do you remember me?
We built this city, we built this city on rock and roll	We are building this city.
We built this city, we built this city on rock and roll	We are building this city.
Built this city, we built this city on rock and roll	We can make this city.
It's just another Sunday in a tired old street	Go to work this Sunday
Police have got the choke hold, oh, then we just lost the beat	He was fired by the police
Who counts the money underneath the bar?	Who counted the money under the fence?
Who rides the wrecking ball into our guitars?	Who controls the ball to beat our team?
Don't tell us you need us 'cause we're the ship of fools	If you do not know us, do not tell yourself
Looking for America, coming through your schools	Are you looking for your school in America?
Don't you remember? (Remember)	Remember (new)
Marconi plays the mamba, listen to the radio, don't you remember?	Marconi is playing mango. I'm listening to the radio. Do you remember me?
We built this city, we built this city on rock and roll	We are building this city.
We built this city, we built this city on rock and roll	We are building this city.
Built this city, we built this city on rock and roll	We can make this city
Built this city, we built this city on rock and roll	We can make this city.
Built this city, we built this city on rock and roll	We can make this city.
We built, we built this city, yeah (Built this city)	Build this city. Yes (this city is under construction)
We built, we built this city	We are building this city.
We built, we built this city yeah (Built this city)	We are building. The city was built.
We built, we built this city	We are building this city.
We built, we built this city yeah (Built this city)	We are building. The city was built.
We built, we built this city (Built this city)	We are building. City under construction (city under construction)

We built this city	The city was rebuilt
We built this city on rock and rollt	The city is made of tin.
Built this city	Build this city
We built this city on rock and roll	The city is made of tin.
Say you don't know me or recognize my face	He said, "I do not know his face or see him."
Say you don't care who goes to that kind of place	For example, what happened to you?
Knee deep in the hoopla, sinking in your fight	Wear warning shoes
Too many runaways eating up the night	Many animals eat at night
Marconi plays the mamba, listen to the radio, don't you remember?	Marconi plays Mango I listen to the radio I miss you.
We built this city, we built this city on rock and roll	We are building this city
We built this city, we built this city on rock and roll	We are building this city
Built this city, we built this city on rock and roll	We can build this city
Someone's always playing corporation games	Among them are professional roles.
Who cares, they're always changing corporation names	But that changed the company's name.
We just want to dance here, someone stole the stage	I want to dance here. Someone stole this place.
They call us irresponsible, write us off the page	Do not call or write on the site.
Marconi plays the mamba, listen to the radio, don't you remember?	Marconi plays Mango I listen to the radio I miss you
We built this city, we built this city on rock and roll	We are building this city
We built this city, we built this city on rock and roll	We are building this city
Built this city, we built this city on rock and roll	We can build this city
It's just another Sunday in a tired old street	Go to work on Sunday
Police have got the choke hold, oh, then we just lost the beat	He was released by the police
Who counts the money underneath the bar?	Who counts money in the zone?
Who rides the wrecking ball into our guitars?	Who are the football controllers we are helping?
Don't tell us you need us 'cause we're the ship of fools	Don't tell us you don't know us.
Looking for America, coming through your schools	Do you want a school in the United States?
Don't you remember? (Remember)	Note (b)
Marconi plays the mamba, listen to the radio, don't you remember?	Marconi plays Mango I listen to the radio I miss you
We built this city, we built this city on rock and roll	We are building this city
We built this city, we built this city on rock and roll	We are building this city
Built this city, we built this city on rock and roll	We can build this city
Built this city, we built this city on rock and roll	We can build this city
Built this city, we built this city on rock and roll	We can build this city
We built, we built this city, yeah (Built this city)	Yes Build This City (Build This City)
We built, we built this city	We are building this city
We built, we built this city yeah (Built this city)	We will rebuild the city, we will rebuild it
We built, we built this city	We are building this city
We built, we built this city yeah (Built this city)	We will rebuild the city, we will rebuild it
We built, we built this city (Built this city)	We will build a city under construction (city under construction)

He built a great city.

We built this city	He built a beautiful city
We built this city on rock and rollt	The surface is the surface.
Built this city	He built a city and settled there.
We built this city on rock and roll	The surface is the surface.
Say you don't know me or recognize my face	I did not grow up in his presence.
Say you don't care who goes to that kind of place	For example, how do you feel?
Knee deep in the hoopla, sinking in your fight	Wear appropriate shoes
Too many runaways eating up the night	Most animals live at night.
Marconi plays the mamba, listen to the radio, don't you remember?	While listening to the radio, Marconi playing in the air.
We built this city, we built this city on rock and roll	Make it a big city
We built this city, we built this city on rock and roll	Make it a big city
Built this city, we built this city on rock and roll	Come to the city
Someone's always playing corporation games	They provide professional services.
Who cares, they're always changing corporation names	But the name was changed.
We just want to dance here, someone stole the stage	Are you trying to kidnap people here?
They call us irresponsible, write us off the page	Find and add places.
Marconi plays the mamba, listen to the radio, don't you remember?	While listening to the radio, Marconi playing in the air.
We built this city, we built this city on rock and roll	Make it a big city.
We built this city, we built this city on rock and roll	Make it a big city.
Built this city, we built this city on rock and roll	Come to the city
It's just another Sunday in a tired old street	I work on Sundays
Police have got the choke hold, oh, then we just lost the beat	Police released him
Who counts the money underneath the bar?	Who donates to the housing fund?
Who rides the wrecking ball into our guitars?	Who is our football coach?
Don't tell us you need us 'cause we're the ship of fools	Do not say they do not tell us.
Looking for America, coming through your schools	Do you want to study outside the United States?
Don't you remember? (Remember)	Bog.
Marconi plays the mamba, listen to the radio, don't you remember?	While listening to the radio, Marconi playing in the air.
We built this city, we built this city on rock and roll	Make it a big city.
We built this city, we built this city on rock and roll	Make it a big city.
Built this city, we built this city on rock and roll	Come to the city
Built this city, we built this city on rock and roll	Come to the city
Built this city, we built this city on rock and roll	Come to the city
We built, we built this city, yeah (Built this city)	Resettlement
We built, we built this city	He built a great city
We built, we built this city yeah (Built this city)	We have to confront you
We built, we built this city	He built a great city
We built, we built this city yeah (Built this city)	We have to confront you
We built, we built this city (Built this city)	Tom is hot

Lake Charles NEEDS Your Help!

The devastation is not over. The suffering is not over. Hurricane Laura may be gone, but the mess it left behindis everywhere. Lake Charles is still suffering and hurting. We appreciate the help, but there are many needs that are not being met.

The national media got the story that Hurricane Laura hit. They don't want to cover the story like they covered Hurricane Katrina because Lake Charles isn't New Orleans. It is just like when they didn't cover Hurricane Rita. Lake Charles is the home to many and is an extremely important city for the rest of the country. It is the fifth largest city in Louisiana and it has a major port where goods come in and go out.

For those who have a place where they can live, there is no electricity in the majority of places in Lake Charles. This means that it is very hot all of the time and that it is very dark when the sun sets. The reality for many people is that they are not truly living, but they are just making it. There are people who offer meals, but more needs to be done.

Disaster food stamps, which are supposed to be for anybody experiencing this disaster, are being given out depending on income, when many people cannot work and thus do not have any current income. They don't care, though. FEMA and insurance companies are telling people who have any type of structure standing that it is livible. It doesn't matter if there is a tree that has fallen down the center of the house and the roof and ceiling is completely exposed to the elements. It doesn't matter that air conditioning cannot be used when it is sweltering hot.

There are some people that can afford generators, but people are purposely inflating the price of gasoline because of this. There are quite a lot of places that are price gouging because people are desperate to get things and will pay because they need it, so these people are taking advantage of them.

There are people who serve food, but these places set up in one place and people have to go to those places. There are people in Lake Charles who are not able to leave to drive or even bike or walk to go get food. Instead, they are sitting inside and needing food.

Lake Charles needs help.

If you are wanting to actually go to Lake Charles to help and to help the citizens, there are things that are easy to find in other cities that can help these people. Please, do help them.

Here are some of the items that are needed:

• Battery operated personal fans and the batteries for them
• Battery operated flashlights and the batteries for them
• Carbon Monoxide monitors for those who are able to afford generators
• Meals delivered to those who are not able to go get meals at the stations where they are being served
• Diapers (infant through toddler sizes)
• Bug repellent spray
• Bottled water

Items are also needed for those who are working and helping in the area. Some of these things are:

• Tarps
• Rakes
• Axes
• Chainsaws
• Wheelbarrows

Of course, more items are needed. However, this is a list of some of the things, especially some things that people do not think about when going to help in Lake Charles. Then, yes, you can always help by donating money to reputable organizations. Please, do not donate to the Red Cross. The majority of money does not go to relief efforts and they do not direct donations to one certain cause, even if it is needed at the time.

Here are some reputable organizations for monitary donations:

• Cajun Navy
• Lutheran World Relief (Hurricane Laura Relief Fund
• United Methodist Committee on Relief - U.S. Disaster and Relief Fund
  
  

2017 Toyota Rav 4 - Wheel World

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In order to help you stay one of the safest drivers on the road, the Rav 4 comes with a rearview video system. This is what is commonly known as a backup camera.

It can easily get up to 23 miles per gallons of gas and holds 15.9 gallons. You should have no problems with typical in-city travel for a full week or more. You could even drive to Houston and back on one tank of gas.

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This is not fun and in a way I will miss Briana, but not the constant taking care of her

Briana is going to have to go live in a group home that provides 24/7 nursing care. Her epiglottis is not working. She is also extremely manipulative and does not like to behave.

However, her medical problems are a huge concern. There has not been any diagnosis for her. All that is known is about her epiglottis and at this rate, doctors are saying that she will never be able to eat again.

I know that is not fun, but she needs monitoring. I know that if she is not watched around the clock, she will try to sneak food and she will aspirate.

She'll either give herself pneumonia again or she will just die because food will go into her lungs.

Thankfully I was not electrocuted

Tonight, I went to see Crowns at The Lake Charles Little Theatre. That was good.

When I got to the theatre, everything was fine. I had no problems. I thought that was going to be the theme for most of the night. There were a few irritating things at the showing with people having to leave because of bringing little kids to the theatre. I am not sure why people would bring such young kids to a show like this. It's not that content wasn't okay, but young kids at a 7:30pm showing when they probably are not going to want to sit still and be quiet or are going to be complaining of being tired seems odd. However, most of the kids did seem to behave.

There was a nice lady sitting next to me at first. I had told Radar (my service dog) to come sit in my lap and instead, she jumped into the lady's lap. I apologized to her and said I would make Radar come sit in my lap, but she laughed and told me to let Radar stay there. She left at intermission, though.

They had an opening night reception, so I stayed for a bit. I was happy that they had lemonade. I had been craving lemonade since yesterday when I saw some at a local restaurant. I had a couple of cookies, too.

When I got to my car, I didn't see anything amiss. However, as I was putting my transport wheelchair away, I heard something. I looked and it was touching some type of downed wire. I hadn't realized this and I had been touching my chair. Thankfully, that seemed to mean that there was no current coming from it. I was a little scared, though. It was behind Viktor (that's the name of my car and I'll write about that some other time) and looked similar to this:

I got my transport wheelchair put away. I got Radar into Viktor along with my backpack, and I was able to leave the theatre safely.

Grieving Pollicle Woofles Syrup Delaney

I didn't post it here, but Woofles passed away on August 3, 2014. People tried to blame my sister. Some person from our vet told a rescue organization that she was dragging him on a chain behind her trike. She had him in the basked and he ended up falling out because something was wrong with him. It was Sunday and when the guy at Walgreens finally gave me a clear enough message, I understood that something was wrong with one of the dogs with Briana. That Walgreens worker was not a good person with his message at all. I get a phone call and the only thing he said is, "We have a customer here. She says it's an emergency. Do you know her?" He gave me NO INFORMATION. How am I supposed to know what he means. He said something else that wasn't helpful. Then he said "I think one of her animals had a stroke," so I knew to worry. Woofles was still breathing a little bit and we were trying to give him CPR, but we didn't know to give him CPR. I was very upset and I got turned around about going to the emergency vet. I don't know if he would have made it. I felt his little body go cold and I knew he hadn't made it, so I went home to get Nibet and Krueger to show them that he had passed away. I felt that it was important. They needed to know and not just suddenly be without Woofles. I didn't know he wasn't feeling well. I thought it was just a chihuahua honk-cough. However, maybe it was more. He'd come in at night and he'd have a little cough. However, he would settle down and it would stop. Whenever he was at the vet, they never found anything wrong with his heart when they listened to it. On the night of August 2, 2014, I was in bed. I was going to go call Woofles from the backyard as that was pretty much my routine. However, Briana was up and she said she would get him. I didn't know he wasn't being himself. She brought him in and he slept with me. She told me later on that he was staring out of our backyard gate. Since she kept saying fence instead of gate, that didn't seem to be any different. The fence is all around the yard and he'd often stare out of it. I didn't think about it, but he was napping with me for a bit on August 3 and when I asked him if he wanted to get up, he was strange. Instead of either being excited to get up, grumpy to get up, or trying to get me to go back to sleep, he held his little head under the sheet right near my leg. He was keeping his head tucked into the sheet and not trying to get room so he could breathe through his nose. I know he's in heaven with my Mama, my Daddy, my Grandpa, my Grandma, my Grandpa George, so many other people, Toggle, Marbles, Micron, Cinder, and other dogs, too. I thought Woofles was only going to be 7 on August 19. When I adopted him, the vet told me that he was probably no more than two years of age, so I gave him the birthday of August 19, 2007. However, I feel there have been signs that he was 11 years old and not approaching 7 or already 7. I was praying about Woofles being in heaven and even when not in deep prayer, those things happened. I prayed about a cross showing up - more like God put the thought there and then Briana brought this cross into the house that she had found. I prayed about talking to a classmate about pets and when I got into my history class, my classmate asked me, "Do you have any animals?" I didn't even have to say a thing. I prayed about a dragonfly landing on me and coming into my car. One day when leaving from the building where the history class I have is held, a dragonfly landed right on my finger and then it flew into my car and was on the dash for just a bit and it flew out. As for being 11, I wanted "dog" and "11" together as I figured that is the closest I'd get to knowing. My Voice and Diction teacher was talking about his dogs and he told me that one of them was 11. I went to Chili's with my castmates the other night and when I got there, there was a police vehicle that was a "k-9 Unit" and it was number 110. Sure, there's a 0 on that, but there's still that "11." Oh, and we took his body to the emergency vet and they found no signs of trauma on his little body. I know that in order to be hanged or choked, there has to be trauma marks. That tells me that it had to be something internal. I still need to get everything to make his memorial so I can have some help burying his ashes in my back yard and then mark that site. I only know where Marbles's ashes are by a tree root and need to finish with his memorial, too. I hate losing pets. Grieving this little dog is not easy. Woofles is (because he exists in heaven) my favorite little dog. I do have a new little dog. Her name is Butterbean. She is my favorite little princess.

Shakespearean Pie References

This version should be better than the last version of my doing this.

Hopefully, the video embeds when I do this.

If it didn't embed, here's the link to the video.
Shakespearean Pie

The song is not in the order of events that they happened in the play. It is a parody song of Don McLean's American Pie. It is very, funny, though! I liked the song before I read Hamlet and now I love it even more!
Song Lyrics	Comments
A long, long time ago I can still remember How, alas, poor Yorick's jokes drew groans He'd dance and sing and kiss my hand Like Elsinore was Neverland But then he went and joined the Skull and Bones	All of this verse is from Act 5, Scene 1, when Hamlet remembers Yorick.
And now, Horatio, I get shivers With every line the ghost delivers	This refers to Act 1, Scene 5, when King Hamlet's ghost speaks to Prince Hamlet.
All the Globe has been dark	Famous theater where many of Shakespeare's plays were staged.
'Cause something rots in Denmark	End of Act 1, Scene 4 when Marcellus comments on what the "meaning" of the ghost appearing might be.
I can't recall a thing as weird As when dear old Daddy reappeared To say that he'd been poisoned-eared The day King Hamlet died	This verse refers to Act 1, Scene 5, when King Hamlet's ghost appears to Prince Hamlet to say that Claudius poured poison in his ear to kill him and that he wans't bitten by a poisonous snake.
So To be or to choose not to be? That's the question I'm digestin' in my soliloquy And when fortune aims its slings and arrows at me Tell me how I'm gonna live through Act III?	This refers to Hamlet's famous soliloquy in Act 3, Scene I.
Answer, please, iambically	The play Hamlet is written in unrhymed iambic pentameter.
Did you like Shakespeare in Love? And did you rewind for scansion of Gwyneth with her wardrobe gone?	This is just silly and about the movie Shakespeare in Love and the nude scenes with Gwyneth Paltrow.
Now, do you believe in English Lit?	Since Shakespeare was British, he is in English Literature.
Is brevity the soul of wit?	Act 2, Scene 2 when Polonius says that he will get straight to saying what he needs to say, yet still with a lot of words!
If so then why's this bloody play so long?	Hamlet is Shakespeare's longest play
Well, I know this role has real cachet For each Branagh and Olivier And Mel Gibson draws blood nice	Kenneth Branagh, Laurence Olivier, and Mel Gibson all played Hamlet is movie versions of Hamlet.
Man, I dig that Passion of Christ!	Mel Gibson directed The Passion of the Christ.
I was a young, great Dane in British schools	Hamlet wasn't actually in a British school. He went to Wittenberg in Germany, and then stayed when Gertrude and Claudius asked him to stay in Denmark.
With my pet Ophelia and a dad who rules	Ophelia was Hamlet's "girlfriend" and his dad was king.
But I knew we'd been played for fools The day King Hamlet died	Again, because King Hamlet was not bitten by a snake.
So here's the question: To be or choose rather to be Suicidal or to idle apathetically, Or IS volition all it's cracked up to be If "to die, to sleep, to dream" is lovely? Please explain the question to me	This refers to Hamlet's famous soliloquy in Act 3, Scene I.
Less than two months since the obit ran	This could even say one month, since Gertrude married Claudius less than a month after King Hamlet died.
And Lord knows, frailty, thy name's woman: My dumbass uncle wears Dad's ring	Act 1, Scene 2 when Hamlet talks about remember his mother with his father and how she has married his uncle.
So I set the stage for a royal sting What a script! I thought, The play's the thing Where I'll catch the conscience of the king	Act 2, Scene 2 where Hamlet has the actors stage a play about what Claudius did.
Oh, and while the king enjoyed the show The players showed him whack his bro The king stomped off and cried	Act 3, Scene 2 when Hamlet's play The Mousetrap is staged, Claudius isn't happy, so he leaves.
O. J. yelled Homicide!	Silliness because O.J. Simpson and the possibility that he murdered Nicole Brown Simpson.
So Let's Make a Deal, Queen Mother, who Is behind curtain number two? How now, a rat? I sliced him through The day Polonius died	In Act 3, Scene 4 when Gertrude talks to Hamlet and has Polonius hide behind the arras [a wall hanging, thus a "curtain,"] and Hamlet cries out, "How now, a rat?" and stabs Polonius as he stabs through the arras. The phrase "What's behind curtain number two?" comes from the game show Let's Make a Deal.
I was thinking: To be or to go with Plan B? Is it nobler just to soldier on Shakespeareanly Or fly off to the undiscovered country? Thus my conscience makes a coward of me	This refers to Hamlet's famous soliloquy in Act 3, Scene I.
Get me to a fun nunnery	In Act 3, Scene 1, Hamlet tells Ophelia to "get thee to a nunnery," and while we think of this as a convent, while it could be, in Elizabethan English, "nunnery" was slang for a brothel.
Hanky panky? Nope, Ophelia's cranky	Act 3, Scene 2 when Hamlet is talking to Ophelia and asks, "Lady, shall I lie in your lap?" and the conversation that follows.
Could she be ticked that I nailed that Yankee?	Hamlet kills Polonius in Act 3, Scene 4.
Or maybe 'cause I knifed her dad?	In Act 5, Scene 2, Hamlet stabs Claudius with a poisoned sword.
She shouted Foul! in her wrath: You'll never tread on my primrose path!	Act 1, Scene 3 when Ophelia is talking to her brother, Laertes.
Guess my joke 'bout "country matters" made her mad	This is referring to Hamlet asking, "Do you think I meant "country matters?" This means he was asking Ophelia if she thought he meant having sex.
Now, the nymph went nutso north-northwest Went 'n' took a swim completely dressed She sank just like a ship	This refers to Act 4, Scene 5 when Ophelia goes mad and drowns herself.
So - here's the moral: skinny-dip	This is referring to the fact that Ophelia was completely clothed, but is dealing with it in a silly way.
Poor Laertes missed his tour de France	In Act 1, Scene 2, Claudius gives Laertes permission to go back to France and then in Act 4, Scene 5, Laertes comes back from France to have the sword fight with Hamlet.
But, merde, this ain't no cheap romance Ask Guildenstern and Rosencrantz The day Ophelia died	Guildenstern and Rosencrantz are characters in Hamlet that are told to spy on Hamlet by Gertrude and Claudius. Of course, this is again referring to Ophelia's drowning in Act 4,Scene 5.
And I was thinking... To be or to other-than-be? That's the question - screw depression - death sounds painless to me	This refers to Hamlet's famous soliloquy in Act 3, Scene I. [Also, just to mention every time that I hear the line "death sounds painless to me," I think of the M*A*S*H theme song Suicide is Painless.]
This too too solid flesh should melt melt like brie	Act 1, Scene 2 when Hamlet says, "Oh, that this too, too sullied flesh would melt . . ."
And resolve into a fondue for me	And at the end of the previous line, when Hamlet says "resolve itself into a dew."
Serve it with some crumpets and tea	Silliness since brie could be served with crumpets and tea, which is a tradition with many British people.
Oh, and there we were all in one place Equipped with poison, swords, and Mace With Fortune there to shape our ends So come on - fence me nimble, fence me quick	This refers the swordfight between Hamlet and Laertes in Act 5,Scene 2.
Don't tase me bro with your tainted prick Or bet your royal ass we're foiled again	"Don't tase me bro" refers to what a University of Florida student said to an officer when he was at a John Kerry Rally in 2007. The other is from Act 5, Scene 2 when the swordfight between Hamlet and Laertes takes place.
So Laertes and I both got poked	Act 5, Scene 2 when the swordfight between Hamlet and Laertes takes place.
Mom drank some Chinese lead-based Coke	Act 5, Scene 2 when the swordfight between Hamlet and Laertes takes place, Gertrude accidently drinks the cup of wine with poison it. The "Chinese Lead Based Coke" refers to lead being found in Coca Cola can paint in 2006 and also that many toys and other items produced in China tend to have lead in the paint.
The king was S.O.L.	Act 5, Scene 2 when the swordfight between Hamlet and Laertes takes place and then Hamlet stabs Claudius.
Thus ends his sworded tale.	Act 5, Scene 2 when the swordfight between Hamlet and Laertes takes place and almost everybody dies due to the poison in some way.
I said, My name ees Hamlet Junior, guy You keeled my dad; prepare to die (Yep, I stole that from The Princess Bride) The day King Claudius died	Act 5, Scene 2 when the swordfight between Hamlet and Laertes takes place.
Here's the question: To be or choose alternately? That's the question I'm processin' in Scene I of Act III To end these shocks or bear 'em heart-achingly,	This refers to Hamlet's famous soliloquy in Act 3, Scene I.
Quoting Sonnet Number 73? (That one's too depressing for me)	A reference to Shakespeare's Sonnet 73.
I met a girl named Juliet And her boyfriend, whose name I forget (What's in a name, man, anyway?)	Silliness with the wrong play; this one is Romeo and Juliet.
I led Othello to his death	Silliness with the wrong play; this one is Othello.
And made life a bitch for King Macbeth	Silliness with the wrong play; this one is Macbeth.
Till the Bard said, Dude, you're in a different play	Being in the wrong plays is finally acknowledged.
So meanwhile back at Elsinore	Elsinore is the castle where Hamlet and family lived.
A bunch of guys come to mop the floor It's Fortinbras's legions I guess we're now Norwegians	End of Act 5, Scene 2 where Fortinbras walks in after the sword fight and everybody involved is dead.
And the three co-stars I riled most: Laertes, Mom, and King Claudi-os Went off to hang with Daddy's ghost	(Act 5, Scene 2 when Gertrude accidentally drank the poisoned wine and then Hamlet killed Laertes and Claudius.
The day Prince Hamlet died	Act 5,Scene 2 when Hamlet committed suicide by drinking the poisoned wine.
I see dead people...	This line is stolen from The Sixth Sense.
To be or choose oppositely? Are we tougher if we suffer indefatigably Or take up arms against a turbulent sea Of the troubles fortune's slinging at me?	This refers to Hamlet's famous soliloquy in Act 3, Scene I.
Screw it - let's go watch some TV	This is just silly.
We were thinking: To be or to not freaking be That's the question we're obsessin' 'bout interminably	This refers to Hamlet's famous soliloquy in Act 3, Scene I
But as for us, the answer's clear: NOT TO BE Caught in THIS Shakespearean tragedy	By the end of the play, Polonius, Ophelia, Gertrude, Claudius, Hamlet, Rosencrantz, and Guildenstern are all dead.
[Horatio:] Good-night, sweet prince.	This is a line from Act 5, Scene 2 when Hamlet tells Horatio that the poison is killing him. I am not sure what movie this line came from if it did. Perhaps it is Robocop as I can't seem to find that one, but I can tell that it's not from The Big Lebowski.
[Hamlet:] I'm not quite dead...	This line is stolen from Monty Python and the Holy Grail when Concorde says it to Launcelot in Scene 27.

If you're wondering, here's "Suicide in Painless." There are definitely influences from Hamlet in that song, too! There is one very obvious one and there are others. Hopefully it embeds, but if it doesn't, I'll give the link aftwards.
Hopefully, embedded:

Link to "Suicide is Painless."
Suicide in Painless

Not Quite Piano Man

Of course, after what has happened today, my prayers are with all the people who were in Boston. It's been an emotionally difficult day once that happened. However, with trying to keep it a bit happier, Briana and I decided to "rewrite" "Piano Man" with misheard lyrics. We replaced the real lyrics with misheard ones and this is the song we now have: It's five o'clock on a Saturday Irregular crowd shuffles in There's an old man sitting next to me Makin' love to his erotic Aunt Jen. He says, "Son, can you play me a melody I'm not really sure how it goes But it's sad and it's sweet and I knew it complete When I wore a young woman's clothes." La la la, did dee da-a La la, did dee da-a da dum Sing us a song, of the Yellow Man Sing us a song tonight Well, we're all in the mood for a melody And you've got us feelin' alright Now John at the bar is a friend of mine He gets me my drinks for free And he's quick with a joke or to light up your smoke But there's someplace that he'd rather be He says, "Bill, I believe this is killing me." As the smile ran away from his face "Well I'm sure that I could be a movie star If I could get out of this place" La la la, did dee da-a La la, did dee da-a da dum And the waitress is practicing politics As the businessmen slowly explode Yes, they're sharing a drink they call loneliness But it's better than being alone Sing us a song from the Meadow Lands Sing us a song tonight Well we're all in the mood for a melody And you got a spirit, that's right. Now Paul is a realistic novelist Who never had time for a wife And he's talkin' with Davy, who's still in the Navy And probably will be polite It's a pretty good crowd for a Saturday And the manager gives me a smile 'Cause he knows that it's me they've been comin' to see To forget about life for a while And the piano, it sounds like a carnivore And the night owl sounds like a beer And they play the guitar and put bread in my jar And say, "Man, what a hue to one ear!" La la la, did dee da-a La la, did dee da-a da dum Sing us a song you're a Chinese man Sing us a song tonight Well we're all in the mood for a melody And you've got a spinet, all right.

Rankin/Bass Plotholes

I watched P. Cottontail tonight. It is one of the Rankin/Bass holiday specials (like Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer). While it is cute, there is definitely a huge plot hole in the show (despite all the other odd things that aren't explained – which really don't matter).

Anyway, the Colonel who is the Chief Easter Bunny is going to be retiring and he picks Peter Cottontail to be the next Chief Easter Bunny. A rabbit named Irontail (because a kid once ran over his tail and now he wears a fake tail that is made of iron [one of the many odd things that don't really matter for the show]) brings the April Valley (it's where the rabbits live) constitution where it says that the next Chief Easter Bunny is the one that delivers the most eggs.

Since Peter Cottontail isn't responsible, he holds a party and he doesn't go to bed on time. He had set his alarm clock, but Ironside sabotages it (there's a chicken on it and he gives the chicken magic corn flavored bubble gum that keeps it from making any noise).

Peter sleeps all day. Irontail is only able to give away one egg as almost nobody wanted an egg from him. However, Irontail wins because Peter didn't deliver any eggs due to sleeping all day.

So, Peter finds Sassafrass (who I guess plants all of April Valley) and he has this vehicle that is basically a time machine and it goes to the different holidays. Peter travels with a caterpillar named Antoine. Somehow Irontail sabotaged the time machine.

It skips over Easter and it first lands on Mother's Day. Nobody wants eggs on Mother's Day.

It then goes to the Fourth of July. Peter repaints the eggs. He lies to two boys and tells them that they are egg shaped grenades. The boys take the entire basket. They bring the basket back complaining that the eggs aren't grenades. However, they couldn't have known this without throwing one down on the hard ground. Thus, Peter had to give away one egg. This would make Peter and Irontail tied.

The next holiday is Halloween. Irontail tries to send a witch to scare Peter, but he isn't scared. Instead, he gives her an egg. That means that Peter has no successfully given away two eggs. He should win. However, the special keeps going. It goes through Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas, Valentine's Day, and St. Patrick's Day.

Of course, there was a way Peter gave away the eggs. It goes back to Easter. Still, there was no reasons that he had to give away the entire basket of eggs. The show easily could've ended after Halloween because Peter should've won by then.

Bad Dreams, Bad Thoughts, and Good Reminders

Last night, I had this dream that my mom was standing behind me as I slept in bed.  She was insisting that she was still "here."  I was praying that I wouldn't have more dreams like that, but that's another one of them.

I miss my real Mama.  It's sad because Nancy (the pastor's wife from St. Michael's) knew her when we first started coming to St. Michael's.  She was nothing like what she was in the few months before she passed.  What Nancy didn't know is that she still wasn't healthy then.  She hadn't started aspirating her food and water when we first started coming.  I don't know when that started.  However, she was doing it lots because she would be in the car and I'd tell her that it's not normal to have water drip from your nose after drinking water.  However, my Mama wouldn't go do the doctor for that.

Al-Anon helps me to remember that I did not have any control over my Mama or over the doctors.  The doctors should've listened to me, but they didn't.  I couldn't control that.  I definitely couldn't control what my Mama chose to do, even though much of it was not good for her.

For some reason, while sitting in the Sowela library while waiting for a fiction reading (and being Briana's extra credit - yes, seriously, I was her extra credit for her "bringing" me), I suddenly had the feeling of how strange it is to come home and not have my Mama in the house, even though I've come through the house doors many times since she has passed.

We got some frozen yogurt from Sweet Frog today because they have a special that if you wear green (yesterday, today, tomorrow), you can fill up a 12oz cup with as much as you'd like and only pay $4 for it.  While I was eating my frozen yogurt with all kinds of chocolate candy and magic shell on it (I didn't need it, but it was fun to do), I happened to look over at the register when some people were buying their yogurt.  It was some numbers that have seemed quite significant in my life lately.  I know that God and Jesus are there when these things happen. It's not just a coincidence like some people say.

I had to write myself some reminders tonight.  Even though I know these things, I often have to remind myself of them and writing them helps.

The first things I wrote:
I continuously pray for my back to get better, too. I believe God still works in healings and miracles. However, I don't doubt Him if my back is not healed. After all, God says that there are strengths in weaknesses. God's plans is bigger than what I'd like . . . and I don't know God's plan. It could coincide with what I'd like, too.

The second thing I wrote:
Sometimes I feel really bad that I don't feel called to go on mission trips to other countries. However, God reminds me that if everybody were called to do such a thing that those things would never get done because nobody would be back home organizing the trips and helping get things done. I've always loved behind the scenes in theater, so it is certainly something that I love for helping others get to go on mission trips. I have to remind myself that God values every single person and a behind-the-scenes person is just as important as those out front. Just like a theater production would never get produced without set builder, stage managers, assistants, and directors, God needs those people for His missions, too.

Closure

Everybody needs closure.  However, how do you have closure when you never truly could have closure?  Besides missing my Mama at times (as I don't really know how many times I "lost" her before officially finally and truly losing her).

Closure is one of the hardest things for me right now.

When Mama was alive, I was having to look into an interdiction.  I didn't want to look into an interdiction.  The reason for doing this was to protect her.   However, she never saw that.  She only thought that I was trying to be mean to her.  Of course, that wasn't true.  I didn't want my Mama to hurt herself or to hurt others.

I had only talked about putting the house and car and annuity all in my name because if she had lived, it would've taken five years for her to get medicaid.  Then she could've received more help than she was currently getting with her medicare and office of group of benefits.

How can I have closure when I can't talk to my Mama in a rational way?  I never could talk to her in a rational way for many months before she passed.  She didn't make sense.  Her speech didn't make sense.  Her words didn't make sense.  Perhaps it was even years before she passed that she didn't make sense.

I know that even when my Daddy was alive that she was getting dumber.  It was awful.  She couldn't remember "shaved ice" and kept saying that it was ice that was "whirred up."  Sadly, Daddy said "whirred up," too.

She would say words for things that just didn't make sense.  I could never figure out how she still managed to do crossword puzzles and other puzzles in GAMES.  However, as I am typing this, Briana is telling me that she is the one who would often correct them.  Mama made a bunch of mistakes.

Mama would keep the really old GAMES magazines, which was crazy, however, I can remember looking at them and seeing that she was smart before she was on those antidepressants.

I tried to teach her how to do logic puzzles, but she never seemed to actually get the concept.  I think I found one or two of them done correctly for a little bit, but then things didn't make sense.

I wish I could talk to her again.  I wish I could find a way to just tell her how much I love and loved her.  I wish she could've known that I wanted her to be safe.

She wanted to get out of the nursing home and I can understand that.  It is sad and gray in that place.  I would've loved to bring her to church.  However, I couldn't physically handle her.  She would've fallen all over.  I couldn't have put her in the car.  I couldn't have taken her out of the car.  I don't know how I could've done anything.

I feel bad now that I didn't go up to the ER when she was taken there.  Briana was there, but I wasn't.  I know I needed to take care of myself because so tired and needed rest.  However, I didn't know it would've been the last time that she may have actually been able to talk to me.

I do remember the last time that she talked to me.  She wasn't making sense.  Billie (I think that was the worker's name) was in her room with me.  Mama was going on and on about the house and the car and talking about me trying to take them away from her.  This was right after she took communion because Pastor Cook came and gave it to her.

Orphaned . . .

In a way, I am now an orphan. My mom passed away on Saturday, September 15, 2012. It wasn't as sudden as my Daddy's death, but I expected my Mama to be around at least a few days longer. I know that none of it is what I hoped, but in a way, I had been expecting her to not be well, too. I had seen her sick and suffering for many months. Sometimes I feel bad because I have no written here for a few days. However, I then look and see that I am dealing with a lot of stuff. Before my mom passed, it was taking care of her, taking care of Briana, doing the jobs I had, looking for a better job, taking care of the dogs, taking care of the car, and many more things. Now, I still have to take care of things including Briana. I am trying to let her be as independent as she can be. I want her to learn tasks and chores so that if she wants, she can learn to live on her own. She talks to me about dreams she has and I want her to be able to pursue them. However, she can't pursue them if she doesn't have the skills she needs to live. Obviously, I am also dealing with Mama's memorial service and getting that all planned now. My mom never wanted a viewing of her body or a funeral. She wanted to be cremated, have a memorial service, and not have people wear black. It still hurts that she's gone. It doesn't seem real sometimes. I drive home and think that maybe I'd find her in the bedroom. Perhaps I'd visit her in the nursing home. There are plenty of times that I just don't know what to feel.

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